just how much is too much?

i wonder about that. Just how hard is too hard? How much is too much?
How much can you push someone to perform and still call it an effort to make him/her excel? To put it simply, how much shit can you pile on someone before he/she breaks or admits that enough is enough?

Fridays.

i recall starting out this blog embracing the notion of "Fridays", TGIF right? You would think.. but really, nowadays and since i've started this blog, fridays are really a form of torture at times, crazy deadlines to meet, time dependent.. the control freak in me just lets itself a little loose. Call me crazy/loony but it's inevitable these days i need to be this way to really achieve things. i need to get things done, PRONTO.
I need my staff to react fast, read me ... practically "feel" my vibe - happy, sad, angry, mad and just intuitively react accordingly. If not, the world turns haywire.

I must admit i'm incredibly happy to be in the environment i currently am working in. Everyone is mostly jolly. I'm surrounded with jolly, happy people and even though it was just SGD$1.20. I was incredibly grateful to my dear "best brudder, Ray" for sparing me the moolah to buy RED BULL. I didn't have time for lunch.. was too steaming ANGRY and seeing RED to really do much in the way of food at lunch time.. but it was my colleagues who are so kind and helpful and so willing to share with me that really made me think hey.. let's sit down with them and really go through this. They are so sweet.. made me feel all the fighting tooth and nail to clarify things was worth my while. And they are worth my while. Totally.

I get things.
I get the dynamics of things more and more now.
I know i don't quite get the product a 100%! (hee) but other than that... communication is so unfailingly important and pertinent that really.. there's no other way i can stress how much it matters how something is said. It matters above and beyond what is being said.

I love my friends now and i think i'm just going to surround myself with the people who obviously deeply care about me. We choose our friends wisely and ultimately, they will be there for you. Ex-boyfriends as well :)As long as you have mutual respect and admiration and respect each other and accept each other for who you are, i'm sure we can all move along as mature adults about this.

Okie. Time to just kick-back and chill with Greys. TO gie: Thanks heaps for coming by babe. Always cool to have ya ard. TO Thana... i Love ya babe! Get well.
And salted will be salted.