Inner Peace

Inner peace (or peace of mind) refers to a state of being mentally and spiritually at peace, with enough knowledge and understanding to keep oneself strong in the face of discord or stress. Being "at peace" is considered by many to be healthy (homeostasis) and the opposite of being stressed or anxious. Peace of mind is generally associated with bliss and happiness.

I would not go so far as to say that i have established "Peace of mind" right now.
Although after surviving that crazy thunderstorm that my family just braved, I've got to seriously Thank God for that.

You know sometimes, I do get the ominous feeling that something bad can happen at anytime, like when we're driving as a family in the car together, i'd contemplate what could happen if we were all in an accident, like what happned to my friend a few years back.. What happens if 3 of your family members were in the car and got into an accident, everyone was seriously injured and suddenly you get a call and they just inform you that really, it's just you left in this world.

What then?

I know you must call me terribly paranoid.
Honestly, I don't even mind this paranoia of mine. It gives me the inner peace i seek when i sleep at night or when i travel. Being prepared and planning ahead is always better than not having a plan at all. I'm a bit of an enigma with regards to this because i can be a totally spontaneous person and throw all caution to the air..when i really am taken by this energetic burst to do something => like Surf, Wakeboard.

It's just Liberating to wakeboard.
I do believe i've never liked anything better.

I love my family and Singapore but sometimes i just find it so suffocating.
Loved making my monthly trips to the East and seeing Doc Ash cos his perspectives are so refreshing. So different from what they think like at work or in the larger context, in Sg.

I'm happy now. I think i've found/attained a certain degree of peace and measured freedom. I am independent, obviously opiniated and have a mind of my own and for once in my life, i'm not afraid to voice my opnions. I know that the people who matter will take the time to sit down and listen so i shall continue to speak my truth quietly and clearly.

I don't blame those who listen and do not understand. It is the ones who do not take the time to listen who do not deserve, in a way to hear what has to be said.

What Doc Ash said makes sense "It is the people who are not trusting who cannot learn to trust easily" However, that doens't apply for me. I'm ever cautious but seriously, you can trust me with things. I know when to say the right things to the right people. I will not blurt and I will always give feedback where it is due and if and only if the person can take it or I feel it is in my place to do so. Otherwise, I'll keep my mouth shut and just listen and observe. There's tons to learn from observing - which i spent the first 15 years of my life doing. Just observing, listening in but not commenting much. Only trusting a precious few and look where that has brought me. I'm surrounded by people who really do care for me and keep a keen lookout for me. And i really appreciate them a lot and will definitely avail myself to them if needed.